Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Life in the way.

There was once a time I laid in bed in tears wondering what it was like to be a Mom. Well a Mom to a little boy here on Earth. I would scour the Internet looking for someone just like me, someone I could relate to. Someone that too felt so lonely and isolated in this world swallowed in unimaginable grief.

I found comfort in blogging and in turn met many many women who too gone through such grief. I had a lot of time on my hands. A LOT.

I blogged and blogged and blogged again. Words just flew out on to the keyboard.

And then I look at my last blog post and it was like... a million years ago. Seriously- over 9 months ago.

What happened?

Life I guess. Life got in the way. But a good way. And I am loving every single last second of it. It's not as easy to write anymore. I am unsure if it's because I am in a much better place and I find it harder to write with ease or is it the 37lb toddler I am trying to keep up with? Granted sometimes when I need to write most over the past year, it's had to do with work and the emotions working in the NICU has brought me and well, I can't say much due to HIPPA. So I am stuck.



Either way- I miss it. I love going back the past few years and watching our family grow and documenting the little things I don't ever want to forget. I want to savor every second just as I did in Nolan's short little life. I am so thankful I did, because almost 4 years later...the little moments are fading but the words I wrote in those very days quickly and vividly remind me of what happened. 


6 comments:

Lori Vann said...

You have no idea how happy I was to see a new blog post by you, and seeing C's happy smile! I am blessed that you allow me to be your facebook friend and follow along your life there. I have giggled at C's adventures, and prayed for you as you honor your brother & Nolan. Your blogging family loves you, and we are always here for you! Love you girlie - Lori Vann

LauraJane said...

I'm so glad to see you post and that you're doing well. CC is growing up so quickly- he's such a little boy. :)

Brie said...

Good to see a post fom you! CC is so handsome!

Mrs.HVK said...

I was just thinking about your blog the other day! Was wondering how you all were doing! CC is growing up so fast! Wishing you all the best!

TanaLee Davis said...

I have to say that I too am glad to see you post. I was just here at your blog to re-visit your photo shoot that was done at the hospital when CC was born. I wanted a friend to see it for inspiration for my "rainbow" son's newborn shoot coming up. :) Thanks for teh update...hope to see you again real soon.
~Felicia

Jen said...

Oh I'm so glad you're back! This is one of my very favorite blogs! So good to "see" you again!